31-10-2016, 10:57 AM
Hello all it's been a while.
Some of you may not care about this which is fine, some of you may which is appreciated.
Some people have asked me some questions especially the last 72 hours since I slowly came back into the mod.
And rather than having to type out the message for each individual who starts asking me this question and be at risk of being accused of "Leeching" if I'm in-game. I'd rather just address this here.
One of the questions I got asked today was "You have been playing the mod on and off since 2012 yet you only recently achieved a Admin status, why did you "Throw that opportunity away and go in-active?"
So here we go into the reasons of me making this thread.
About 4 years ago I started getting really bad stomach cramps and also having some reflux issues. I decided to report it to my doctor, she just said 'Don't worry about it, sounds like a stomach bug to me.' These cramps and the reflux continued for about another 6 weeks and finally I'd had enough and went and saw my doctor and 3 other doctors all of whom basically just said "Toughen up sweetheart and get over it." So understandably I was extremely annoyed.
Anyway after about 3 years from the initial doctors visit I decided I could no longer continually withstand the pain/discomfort on a daily basis and decided to give seeing a doctor a go again. This time my doctor told me I needed to see a specialist asap which I have done. They conducted some test and told me the news was not good. Which brings me to the point.
The specialist told me I require some surgery which I accepted the offer and am now on the waiting list to receive this surgery. How ever due to the fact that I am not a "private patient" or I don't have "Cancer" I am in-eligible to go on the priority list. Which of course being Jugg's life is not a good thing because what my Specialist and doctor have both told me is without the surgery I am considered "Terminally Ill" (Dying for those who don't know what I meant haha) and I could have as little as 6 months from June 2016.
So I asked my doctor if there was anything I could do that could help my emotions or even delay/slow down the "disease" I have. He instructed me reducing "stress" could always help.
While I did not find being an admin for NordInvasion "Stressful" I felt that I should try to remove my self from the environment I was in because let's face it at this the NI community can be quite Immature, toxic even at times. (Not all, just some people.
)
For those who have me on steam I daresay at times you would have seen me on games and been like "Why is he no longer playing NI but he's playing "CS:GO or Arma 3" yet won't come play NI with me. Well as I said in the previous paragraph I just wanted to remove my self from the NI community as much as I could. I actually left over 20 social groups/clans/units so as to minimize as my "Stress" as I could and just played games "Casually" so don't feel like I abandoned you or anything. Ha-ha And if I'm 110% honest I was getting burnt out of sitting through 10+ hard and 5=8 rag runs a day seeing countless loots come up and not ever getting anything better than a bear fur or a lump. *Insert salt comments/insults here*
I would first like to offer an apology to the NordInvasion admin and developer team for not publicly posting this to you back in June/July I was just emotionally processing it and didn't really want to discuss it/announce it so I believe only Irish Eagle knows.
Next I would like to apologize to DB house While I was not a pivotal member over there (Captain/Sergeant etc) I still left without notification and I apologize for that. If I'm honest I didn't even know how to tell Irish Eagle let alone other people ha-ha.
I also apologize to the NordInvasion community. Even though a-lot of you probably do not like me because I am as some people have so eloquently put it a "Nazi mod" I actually did miss doing public runs with a-lot of you. Although it was annoying when you'd join in a game and then half the team would be T3 and the rest would be Hero and then the T3's would take Hero's weapons meant for me!!!! :
I hope this post does clarify some information for the very few of you who may have been wondering!
P.S. I am going to be returning too the mod just probably not as active as I used to be while being an admin.
I also want to mention stop asking me to give you shit Rowan ha-ha.
Sorry to all who deserved to be told but were not told, as I stated earlier I was still trying to emotionally deal with it and if I'm honest I still am a bit.
I'm assuming I'll probably be asked "Are you scared of dying?" and the truth is quite simple for me. No I am not, I mean I don't want too but the way I'm looking at it is, there are A-LOT worse ways to go. There is no actual medical name for what my disease is, So my official diagnosis is "Gastro-Oesophageal Reflux Disease." Which is basically I just have reflux. How ever the truthful reality is alot more complicated and I don't really want to go onto the messy details.
Anyway for the few who actually read this all the way through thank you.
If you have any questions let me know and I will reply to them if I can. Also I'm not looking for "Sympathy" I'm just posting this now so it saves me time in the future. Ha-ha.
Some of you may not care about this which is fine, some of you may which is appreciated.
Some people have asked me some questions especially the last 72 hours since I slowly came back into the mod.
And rather than having to type out the message for each individual who starts asking me this question and be at risk of being accused of "Leeching" if I'm in-game. I'd rather just address this here.
One of the questions I got asked today was "You have been playing the mod on and off since 2012 yet you only recently achieved a Admin status, why did you "Throw that opportunity away and go in-active?"
So here we go into the reasons of me making this thread.
About 4 years ago I started getting really bad stomach cramps and also having some reflux issues. I decided to report it to my doctor, she just said 'Don't worry about it, sounds like a stomach bug to me.' These cramps and the reflux continued for about another 6 weeks and finally I'd had enough and went and saw my doctor and 3 other doctors all of whom basically just said "Toughen up sweetheart and get over it." So understandably I was extremely annoyed.
Anyway after about 3 years from the initial doctors visit I decided I could no longer continually withstand the pain/discomfort on a daily basis and decided to give seeing a doctor a go again. This time my doctor told me I needed to see a specialist asap which I have done. They conducted some test and told me the news was not good. Which brings me to the point.
The specialist told me I require some surgery which I accepted the offer and am now on the waiting list to receive this surgery. How ever due to the fact that I am not a "private patient" or I don't have "Cancer" I am in-eligible to go on the priority list. Which of course being Jugg's life is not a good thing because what my Specialist and doctor have both told me is without the surgery I am considered "Terminally Ill" (Dying for those who don't know what I meant haha) and I could have as little as 6 months from June 2016.
So I asked my doctor if there was anything I could do that could help my emotions or even delay/slow down the "disease" I have. He instructed me reducing "stress" could always help.
While I did not find being an admin for NordInvasion "Stressful" I felt that I should try to remove my self from the environment I was in because let's face it at this the NI community can be quite Immature, toxic even at times. (Not all, just some people.
)For those who have me on steam I daresay at times you would have seen me on games and been like "Why is he no longer playing NI but he's playing "CS:GO or Arma 3" yet won't come play NI with me. Well as I said in the previous paragraph I just wanted to remove my self from the NI community as much as I could. I actually left over 20 social groups/clans/units so as to minimize as my "Stress" as I could and just played games "Casually" so don't feel like I abandoned you or anything. Ha-ha And if I'm 110% honest I was getting burnt out of sitting through 10+ hard and 5=8 rag runs a day seeing countless loots come up and not ever getting anything better than a bear fur or a lump. *Insert salt comments/insults here*
I would first like to offer an apology to the NordInvasion admin and developer team for not publicly posting this to you back in June/July I was just emotionally processing it and didn't really want to discuss it/announce it so I believe only Irish Eagle knows.
Next I would like to apologize to DB house While I was not a pivotal member over there (Captain/Sergeant etc) I still left without notification and I apologize for that. If I'm honest I didn't even know how to tell Irish Eagle let alone other people ha-ha.
I also apologize to the NordInvasion community. Even though a-lot of you probably do not like me because I am as some people have so eloquently put it a "Nazi mod" I actually did miss doing public runs with a-lot of you. Although it was annoying when you'd join in a game and then half the team would be T3 and the rest would be Hero and then the T3's would take Hero's weapons meant for me!!!! :
I hope this post does clarify some information for the very few of you who may have been wondering!
P.S. I am going to be returning too the mod just probably not as active as I used to be while being an admin.
I also want to mention stop asking me to give you shit Rowan ha-ha.
Sorry to all who deserved to be told but were not told, as I stated earlier I was still trying to emotionally deal with it and if I'm honest I still am a bit.
I'm assuming I'll probably be asked "Are you scared of dying?" and the truth is quite simple for me. No I am not, I mean I don't want too but the way I'm looking at it is, there are A-LOT worse ways to go. There is no actual medical name for what my disease is, So my official diagnosis is "Gastro-Oesophageal Reflux Disease." Which is basically I just have reflux. How ever the truthful reality is alot more complicated and I don't really want to go onto the messy details.
Anyway for the few who actually read this all the way through thank you.
If you have any questions let me know and I will reply to them if I can. Also I'm not looking for "Sympathy" I'm just posting this now so it saves me time in the future. Ha-ha.
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